Ilang beses kaming nag-away ngayong December?
I don’t know. I lost count.
How do I reconcile self-worth and selfless love?
How should I love others without forgetting how to love my self?
I long for a guy who knows how to really love me, fight for me, and understand me… someone who knows the language of my heart.
I long for a guy who would hug me when I’m upset. I don’t need his lectures. I need a friend.
I long for a guy who is sensitive. I don’t need to know his logic. I need to know that he has a heart.
I long for a guy who is consistent. I don’t need someone who is extremely sweet, loving, caring today but suddenly becomes the opposite the next day. And repeats the same cycle for a period no one knows how long.
I long for a guy who fights for me and for us. I don’t need a hero. I need a man.
I long for a guy who values time. For we do not know when our hearts decide to stop beating.
I long for a guy who is true to his words. Because harsh words when spoken and hearts when broken are the hardest things to repair.
I long for a guy who dreams and who works hard to materialize his dreams. Because his happiness is important to me too.
Oh dearest one, do you exist?
If you do, will you ever be mine?
If yes, will I ever be good enough for you?
But what if God gives me a man who is not a friend, who seldom uses his heart, who is inconsistent, who doesn’t fight for me, who doesn’t value time, and who speaks haphazardly?
Should I stick to my standards to avoid experiencing pain? Or should I lower them, and settle with him, and offer selfless love?
How do I balance self-worth and selfless love?
How? Tell me. :(
I am immature. I am weak. I am vulnerable.
This is me.